Well, you are curious about Praxa PearlWing. I have my own stories to tell, a mix of mysticism and practicality. That is always the way it seems when finding one's self. A rebirth of self, always changing. The most constant thing about me is change. I bring with me a whirlwind from the fertile Could-Be and straight through to What-Has-Been. My journey began long before I found myself covered in scales flying the Web, that is Life itself.

    Its begins with a breath. I had felt always guided by whispers in the night and hunches deep in my belly. So with that same grasp of feeling, I began my spiritual training. It started with studying various other religions and practicing some of them. From these, I derived my own mix of theories and laws of life that I live by today.

    My most describing trait is my capability to love. I mean love in all ways. When I was younger, I used my body to love, seeing it as a vessel of Divine passion (still do..) as I matured, so did the expression of my love. My caring made me more motherly for I genuinely cared for even total strangers as they were my blood. Unlike most, I hadn't lost that almost child-like approach to love...love first, ask questions later.

    My most startling life changing revelation came when I was crying and heartbroken at the age of 10, being teased at school which being smarter, female, and of a minority didnt make me popular in the least bit. Through my tears, I had felt any other creature on this planet could feel this pain, in my sorrow, I knew that all beings deserved love and perhaps the lack of such nuturing for their souls caused so many to ache as I did. Now, older, I do know all others have choices in their lives, for we do create our reality, consciously or unconsciously. But I do know for a fact that a touch of honest love can heal a lifetime of pain and I will always believe in that power.

    Being as I am, I drew many to me. I was still naive to the darker desires of others expecting the same openess in return only to be met with heartache and abuse over and over. Yet again, my faith in love and my ability to weild that everlasting power always pulled me up in the end.It was when I finally turned that love to focus on myself did my life truly change. I lost many 'friends' and my personal relationships suffered. But, I did change. The key to that was when I found a new medium, talking online.

    So along the cords of the internet, I cast out my energies and found many who would speak to me and I could touch. Those I had found began affirming what I secretly knew under my tired facade, that I was more than what I would allow myself to be. Many a night were spent in introspection, tearing down my inner walls and screaming out in anguish with a voice I had forgotten I possessed. It was only a matter of time before I found those who were guides. The ones who just touch your life so incredibly and are gone before you can latch on to them. Something I had been called at one time by some. For all my help to others, it was finally my turn to take the deeper journey I had led so many on.

    That is when I met Magi De Lion. He was a native american witch. I had a vision about my native ancestors and he helped me translate the words spoken to me. He felt I had great potential to be a Medicine woman, just from my energy. I had taken in the normal ego-stroking but to accept that I was a true shaman? I was afraid and that fear would follow me til I gave myself over to who I was. One night, his energy grabbed and washed over me. He stated he wanted to take me on journey. He lulled me into a light meditative state and lead through the 4 elements of Wind, Fire, Water and Earth then for spirit, the Fifth element, he introduced me to a Dragon. I stood upon a visionary dreamscape and saw the Dragon fly from the clouds down to where we were standing upon a mountain. He was blue and white Eastern dragon. I had seen many dragons in pictures and had even experienced the energies of other astral beings but never a Dragon. He landed close to us then walked up to me. His eyes were whole blue jeweled orbs. I gazed into my very soul and smiled. He looked for a moment at Magi then calmly floated to toward me growing smaller with each moment only to the become a tiny dragon a foot long. I felt him crawl up my leg and back all over my chest to rest in between my breasts and settle within me. At that time I felt/sensed/heard him say ~'Tis about time you came..We have much to do'.~ Magi commented his name was Lung Tao (Dragon Way) and I could contact him always by speaking his name. After that, I could hear/feel him inside me. I would ask a question and he would answer me. I was stunned for a few weeks. But my life still hadnt truly changed.

    My personal energy increased greatly after joining with Lung. My natural empathy and healing talents became almost effortless. I had found myself full and powerful. I used my gift alot, helping many. The initial charge faded as my personal life again grew more painful. My spirit was working wonders while my mundane self was taking an enormous emotional beating. I was out of balance and spending more and more time empty and scared. Lung would hardly speak to me. All the support I had build up was crumbling and I was alone. After a long night of fighting and pain, I gave up. I had nothing left to give or to live for. I laid upon the floor of my study content to die right there.

    I slipped into a trance state wanting to never to breathe again. When I felt this rush of energy and Lung rose out of me. He circled about me, gazing down upon me. Tis the first time I ever beheld him as he was, an Eastern Dragon filling my vision with his sky blue and light pearl form. At this moment, I had given up all I was and Lung swooped low and began to devour me. I watched with my spirit self as Lung Dao destroyed my body and sense of self forever. I saw him tearing my body apart, ingesting me soon I was in his body being carried to a slate grey mountain with a triangular opening with a purplish sky. Then my focus changed and I was surrounded by darkness, I pushed out against the darkness. I felt resistance, pushed more. The shell broke and I was hatching from an egg. I looked around as many dragons began to slowly step forward. Greens, Golds, Blues all coming out of the walls as if camoflaged. I was surrounded by Dragons. I stepped out of the egg.I looked down upon myself. I was all pearl-white. My scales were wide and flat. It was as if I was an anthro reptile of some kind, scaled yet walking somewhat upright. Looking around, I did see Lung come close. He nuzzled me and took me aside..then darkness.

    I awoke on my study floor still sprawled out. I got up slowly and stumbled my way to the bathroom. I turned on the light. Behold! the same dragoness I saw was staring back at me in the mirror! I shook my head and blinked seeing my human form again. As in my spiritual tradition, I took a bath with salts of purification and sang with my favorite songs rejoicing at my Awakening!

    Just days later, I had another vision. In this, I was in a similar cave in the same mountain. I was older and possesed an AnthroDragon form. A large Red/Black male Dragon came forward and asked me what were my talents. I looke about and noticed all regarding me. I told him healing, lightning and wind. He accepted this and told me to take my true form. I fully transformed to a western/eastern pearl scaled dragon. There was a opening in the ceiling of the cave, a star fell from the sky. It landed on my head and became part of me. Before anything else could happen, Lung came out of the shadows and took me out of there, up past the planet into space. Lung showed me how there are Dragons in all living things. Everything with an essence there was a Dragon involved. Before my blue jewel eyes, I saw Dragons made from the fabric of space itself..looked at the other planets in the solar system..seeing how their were full of all kinds of Dragons made from every concieveable substance. Then I saw the Web of Life, the very essence, connecting everything together. Thick cords went from everything to a center Source..and along a huge cord there Dragons were. They had a song that I felt/sensed/heard and I responded. I flew long the Light Cord with them to the Source and knew bliss. Lung brought me out fly back to Earth. There, I saw many cords fraying. Lung taught me how to re-weave the cords strong again from my essence. Then, Lung told me I was a Guardian of this and other worlds, a healer to keep the Cords of life strong.

    I had no mentor to even ask what was going on then someone online was drawn to me and talked to me. He had alot of experience with being a Dragon told me much of the same happened to him. I did believe him in time I learned he was one of those that only saught to feed off those who have strength. He said his Dragon's name was Saber, a red and black older male. He told me that Dragons were atsral beings that used humans to see through like toys. That I had no real power and given the time I was brought to him probably because I would make him a good mate. For months afterward, I was tortured with the thought I wasnt a Dragon at all. I made the decision in me to be what I was..A Dragoness. He talked to me from time to time to see how I was progressing. Im happy to say the last time I spoke with him, he was surprised that I hadn't gone insane. I told him I was a Dragoness and he cringed from me unable to disillusion me anymore.

    We all go through our challenges as we awake. I had to look within. As all my mentors told me. There is no other Way to your trueself. I wasnt alone when I went through all of this that I can see now. I have some draconic memories. As I delve into myself and find others, I have learned much more. As you will as well.

    Be Blessed All..

    Love as you Will,

    Love is the Key and the Light of the Soul,
    It is the connecting fiber to All,
    It brings the Flow
    from beginning to its end,
    With Love, we birth and in Love, we die
    All that manifests..we do so in Love
    For the Creation of anything is in Love

    ~Praxa She`Kael Tangmiron PearlWing